Phase I: Change Behaviour
2010 November, Wellington, New Zealand.
New Zealand, my second home. Instead of going back to Hamilton where I spent most of my teen time there, I have decided to stay in our capital city Wellington. No why, my best friends were there and still there ...
During this period of time, I learn a phrase: Very Good!
Core value: What make out of you, who you really are. Once you know it, then you will know the purpose of why you are here, so call the meaning of life (That's what I understand ... you don't have to agree with me, cox you will have your own learning to do ^_* -> That's a wink FYI)
After arriving home, I continued my search of who I really am, and what my task in life. In order to accomplish this easy yet impossible task, looking deep within is what I should always do. Wellington is the perfect place to get start of this internal path! Since its always windy (Its a windy city after all) and over 265 days of rain, and the most important of all was: I live up on the hill!
No car means I need to catch the very last bus which stop by my place after work everyday. That last bus ends 5:30PM weekday! Weekend? Walk! Brilliant!
Living in this beautiful place, I start to listen to my thoughts every second! All kind of thoughts! It was unbelievable my brain just keep talking to me even I am in this peaceful and magical place!
I am telling you! Talking! Non-stop! All kinds of things, mostly from the past! This loath me!
Therefore; I start to listen but with "No Comments" on all kind of thoughts! Not to add any emotion, comments, or any other spice into it! A deep breath ... I am back to reality, back to present
Somehow; I need to thanks all those thoughts, they were the key that help me to find out the layout on my core value, the layout I need to peel off! Those layout have one in common:
Not good enough. No matter what I have encountered, the first comment to myself is:
"Oh no, I am not good enough! I need to be humble!" This might cause from the family, might cause from the overall environment, might cause from a lots of source! But! Is this really other people think of you?
Old me ... YES! with my watery eyes.
Present me, I doubt it ... People have lot more things in their mind then you can imagine, besides; they are just not that into you! So instead of thinking: Oh what would others think of me ... I started to listen to my thoughts at that moment ... look at them: Is that a criticise? Is that an analytical report!? Whatever you do! Don't tag them, just let them pass.
That's no the only thing I starting to do, but still listening to the outside world. Somehow I found, no matter what you did! Good or bad, right or wrong, or just nothing ... The only thing kiwis normally said is:
Very Good!
Good: Very Good ... (more like well-done!)
Bad: Very Good ... (more like oh well ... what you can do, just let it be)
Right: Very Good ... (more like, lucky me/us!)
Wrong: Very Good ... (more like, darn ... next time then)
Everything is what we have created out of our mind, so why not just make it Very Good ^_* (Wink!)
Core Value: Open mind willing to learn and be change! Light up in the darkness and spread the laughter around beloved ones!
